i haven't left but i already miss it

i do not know why i feel nostalgic at the moment while i try to remember the events that have transpired for the last weeks of march. maybe because the recent happenings have been so overwhelming and fleeting that i haven't had the time to reflect on the varying emotions coupled with it. i have long ago hoped for the end of school - no more piling papers and schoolwork, no pressuring thesis and certainly no recitations and readings to worry - and all i could think about was the well deserve break.

when i look back, i realize that every bit of tense emotion, frustration and pressure are the things that also make a student sturdy. we can never do away with it. college life has been the one of the best years for most people i know; it is the transition from learning to knowledge. and as it ends for this year's batch of graduates, i cannot help but feel nostalgic over the days that have gone and the opportunities that could have been. college is not only a learning experience all right, it is life slowly unfolding to the real world.

03.19.10 lunchdate with some of the best people i know

03.19.10 baccalaureate mass

03.22.10 my best friend from the states arrived for our grad

03.26.10 polsci socialization 2010

03.29.10 grad

the house is killing me

back in january, i was anticipating for this day to come: the day when all requirements and nerve wracking term papers would all be over. in my head, i was lining up the things i would do in preparation for april. i remember how i would feel that the days were crawling ever so slow, while i was so hyped and agitated to reach the end. i felt frustrations and disappointments again and again, and a tinge of anger at times when the tensions got so overwhelming. but at the end of it all, as my school year draws to a close, i suddenly feel this bittersweet longing to go back and start all over again. oddly enough, i already miss it even though i'm not yet gone.

the blue book-bound manuscript does not define you

finally, finally, thesis is officially over. after months of sleepless nights, suppressed temper and hard work, our efforts have finally paid off. never mind that we're slightly behind the minimum to be a candidate for best thesis, all i'm really happy about is that we can all be at peace once again.

although it's a bummer that some wonderful people i know have to suffer just because their panelists are way over the top when it comes to critiquing a manuscript. i mean, you do not really have to put the students in such a terrible situation, considering that there are deadlines for the grades, right? why don't they just give a grade they think the students deserve after doing all the revisions they had set, and everyone could finally be free. it's a done deal and everyone walks free feeling a bit better than the former scenario.