fed up

life is fcking miserable. .

i just want to end my agony by fast forwarding myself to the future. all this pressure from all the schoolwork is not helping me. i feel so bad that i need to curse life in order to feel a little better. fck. the term sounds like an endearment right now, especially because i feel like my fate suddenly became fcking messed up. i hate the fact that im so fcking lazy thats why i have to practically crame my thinkpiece paper due tomorrow. and i know its my fcking fault since i took it for granted before.

i just want to die right now..


...or maybe not.

i want this sh!t to finally be over so i could finally feel a little normal again. all this schoolwork is not helping. the fcking history and finance quiz tomorrow are fcking disturbing my already low level of sanity left. i want to magically finish that comparative politics thinkpiece so i could do away with life again. its so fcking frustrating that my efforts are not paying off very well.

i got called for recitation in rizal awhile ago, but after feeble attempts to answer that fcking easy question i was asked to sit. how unfortunate to be asked on a particular topic i did not read about. i really thought that the discussion today would be on the palma and pascual papers. it turned out that the bluementritt paper was still included. so my efforts for reading the palma and pascual papers yesterday was useless. and the english assignment i made was returned to me bacause all she needs was a specific, one-sentenced answers. and here i was thinking that what i did was noteworthy. fck.

iam fcking so depress right now. i need a smores. :[

think of happy thoughts

i finally gave in and bought the album of hilera yesterday. yihee :]. after months of planning to buy the cd, i now own one of the coolest local album available in every record store (opinionated). now theres now need for me to search the entire radio frequnecy just to hear their song/s. although, i still want a copy of their APO rendition for my mp3. kaso, i dont want to buy the APO tribute album.. lack of funds na haha.



looks like its going to be a tough competition between a promise (quiet) and pilit (acoustic) :].